RIP

i've never talked about my real feelings before this
and today i feel really lousy
my sixth sense ticked after subuh prayer this morning, wanting to tell me something bad.
oh gawd.
what now?

aku masuk dalam kete, the first thing abah told me was, dotdot (my cat) died.
he told me, siap gelak-gelak lagi tu, that mak jumpa dotdot already keras dekat jalan blakang rumah.
and abang took him to the hutan of ulu yam yesterday to bury him.

i choked on my strawberry milk.
literally.
kuar ikut hidung.

i really really want to burst into tears on the spot but i couldn't cry infront of my dad just because my cat died eh?
that would me really stupid of me.
so all the way i pretended to sleep.

in the beginning, dotdot was a really difficult cat to get along with.
he didn't trust strangers.
he was practically allergic to strangers.
bila nampak orang, dia bertempiaran lari.
after i graduated in 2003, bila aku pindah balik rumah, it took me almost a year, and a lot of bitings, scratchings, even more bleeding and scarring to make him trust me as one of his keepers.
lama-lama bila dia dah kenal to the sound of my voice and maybe my smell, everytime aku panggil dia, kalau dia jauh mcmmana pun dia akan lompat gate blakang dan duduk atas favourite spot dia tu.
bila aku tensi2 balik keje, aku gi blakang dulu, tengok kenits2 aku, and dotdot was almost always dekat feberet spot dia.

he had this really 'unique' kind of mewing.
kalau kuceng lain bunyik, 'miaooo..', dia bunyik, 'ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...'
hahahah
and bulu dia mcm karpet
and he was really sweet, tak berak merata, senang nak jaga.
cuma dia suka muntah.. buwrekkkkk.
sebab dia ni nice, senang nak jaga walaupun tak baper manja (told you about the people-phobia stuff), he became one of my favourite cats (mind you i have 12 of them, skang dah tinggal 11 huhu)

last time i saw him, masa hari sabtu
abang aku tader, so dia tinggal pesan soh kasik makan kuceng
aku bangun dah ler lambat, turun dalam kul 3petang, tgk kuceng2 aku sumer menggelupur lapa hahah
dotdot masa tu dalam sangkar, aku bukak sangkar dia terus nak kuar, tapi aku letak makan aku terus kunci sangkar
kijam kan aku?
that was the last time, tak sempat pon pegang2 dia mcm biasa.
huhu.

RIP Dotdot/Dobot/Godot
2001 - 2 April 2007

tretttrett

yeah so what if right now i'm screaming myself hoarse like a fckin' lunatic?

bite me.



pundek HANJENG punye Wårnêr Brös.
aku baru tingat nak rip lagu nih
pegi mampos lah, aku takkan beli yg original CD punya
tak HENGEN aku nak kasik kaya lagi itu sumer YAHUDI laknat
ni lagik aku berkobar2 aku nak cari leak album dorang pastu aku nak reupload and post EVERYWHERE
oh yeah? FUCK you too!

bodo lah

lagi skali saper jumpa aku tgk aku gemok pastu cakap aku senang hati pasal tu aku gemok, mmg nak kene sepak aa
siyers!
aku tak kira ah saper, mmg sah nak kene sepak.. waaaaaa
senang hati bontot mak tiri jiran tetangga ko lah!

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When you get stressed, you tend to have cravings for unhealthy food like sugary, salty and fatty foods. This includes most food that are not good for you, and are less healthy which leads to increased weight gain. When in stress, many people find it either difficult to cook or have no time to cook. These people then tend to turn to getting fast food instead of eating healthy dinners.

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Too much of stress leads to a change in the blood sugar levels which in turn brings about mood swings, extreme tiredness and some conditions like hyperglycemia. It is also possible to suffer from metabolic syndrome when in stress as it leads to larger health problems like diabetes and heart attacks.

It is amazing to learn that excess stress also determines where the fat gets stored in the body. Abdominal fat increases with higher level of stress which is not only aesthetically bad; it also creates greater health problems than having fat in any other part of the body. So it can be said that stress does indeed have a lot of effect in weight gain of a person. So don’t get surprised, instead take the right steps to curb excessive eating when in stress as this in turn only leads to weight gain and other health conditions.

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OMIGOD

i just did the unthinkable

aku impulsively telah buat pre-order the new Harry Potter book 7 via MPH website.

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lepas print resit aku tetiba rasa sgt menyesal.
sebab ni version hardcover, bapak gedabak.
aku usually tunggu sampai paperback kuar baru aku beli, but paperback version usually kuar dalam approximately setahun lebih selepas the original release date.
I HATE TO FUCKIN' WAIT FOR MORE THAN A YEAR FOR A FUCKIN PAPERBACK.
JKR announced yg dia takkan kuarkan version e-book dah, so unlike previous books, yg aku biasanya dapat download via P2P programs, kali ni nampaknyer mcm tader harapan aku dpt chap tengkorak punye.

and then i bloody pre-ordered it online.

uwaaaaaa....

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well at least i get the bloody mug and the paperback, IF i'm among the first 5000 who ordered online.


ya tuhan, what have i done?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaa